lie?worthy?

2012/3/10 Morning 9.39am Malaysia

this is my second week without her.....i still miss her,our past time together..although is only 3month...that were a lot of the memory that make us be mature.. i hope she always be fine,and take care on herself.. yeah...did she remember also??i hope so....this time i live without her...why i live her and lie to her that i will married? because i felt that i always make her sad..make her angry....i took decision for her future... is ok for me..nvm..i hope my scarified she wont know....my life is very short now.....maybe 5years or less....i sick worst....yea..she nver know..cz i did not told her...hahaha....stupid right?? yeah..every night i just pray wish her have a good life.....wish her succeed in the future....i cant make her happy anymore....i need to leave this world soon...i dont want!!i miss her a lot...a lot thing i want to share with her,smile with her....sorry dear...i broke ur promise...take care....